WARNING - DEPRESSING POST ABOUT OCD AND DEPRESSION
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and depression are still pressing down hard on me. I see a psychiatrist, but he no longer does active counseling, and only monitors medication at this time. Furthermore, neither of the two best psychologists in my area are currently taking new patients. I've definitely had better times, mentally speaking. Compared to the better points of my life, I feel like I am dealing with the burdens of two lives - my external life of everyday responsibilities, and my internal life of obsessive anxieties and self-hating depression. I feel like I'm barely treading water in my "normal", everyday life because most of my energy goes into dealing with my anxiety and depression. Doing ordinary things like getting ready in the morning or driving or washing dishes seem much more difficult and energy-consuming than they used to be. It definitely weighs me down and narrows the scope of my life. Fortunately, it's not bad all the time. Hopefully things will improve soon, and I will have something more positive and interesting to write about!